just friends

you ever have that one girl that you knew was right for you
and its obvious your right for her
but for some reason, it just cant happen?
its like at first, when you just met, it felt like you've known each other forever
everything just flows so right with her
that one girl you can be yourself around and she wouldn't mind.
later, you know all about her and she knows all about you and you guys are like best friends.
you feel like there's a thing going on between you two but in reality its only you
even if nothing was said between you two, it would still feel just right.
you're there for her whenever she got hurt from some other guys
saying "she deserves better" when you really want to say
"I'll treat you better then him"
but somehow she doesn't see it.
you're afraid she doesn't feel the same way about you so you never let it show.
why?
"why cant you give us a try?"
everything we need is right in front of us,
but she just wont take it.
you're afraid of losing that friendship you two hold
and secretly so is she.
you finally build the guts to tell how you feel
and in an attempt to keep your friendships
she says its "best if we stay friends".
but after that happens, it can never be the way it was.
and we end up losing what we tried to save.



how do we break this cycle here?

feedback!

hoyparre14: fool i hella feel u on that blog tho

hoyparre14: on yur blgospot tho

y not TOE KNEEE: which one

hoyparre14: ever feel like this

hoyparre14: that one lol

y not TOE KNEEE: ohhh fasho

hoyparre14: i was like wtf

hoyparre14: did i write this?

y not TOE KNEEE: hahahaha

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whoa! people actually read this! haha damn im shocked. that makes me feel good knowing he can relate and feel what im saying.

alright anyways, today was the day of the lil lunch! it was pretty fun and all catching up with her but i can tell its not a possible thing. so much for that. back to square one. i cant even think of any possibilities anymore. night yall.


btw, thanks for whoever reads this! hope im saying something to keep you coming back. i just put in this chat box on the right side of the page, anyone can leave a message. if you read my blog feeel free to leave one. no mean ones please? im sensitive haha

fix my heart

so i got a physical today and the lady said i have an irregular heartbeat, like an extra thump each time. whoaaa. hope its nothing serious. tomorrows the day, lets see how it goes. so far its not really goin so great

yayyy

such easy classes now. the lunch thing tuesday has been moved to wednesday. hope its fuuuun. my new speakers sound great, my new tv is very nice. lifes good right now. lifes goooooooood

ever feel like this?

have you ever thought about the person you have a crush on and just said to yourself "what chance do i have?"
i feel like that pretty often.
its like this girl can have any guy she ever wanted so what good am i?
honestly i dont think i have anything that sets me apart from other dudes.
i cant sing or dance or play any instruments.
im no sports all star and have the nice car.
i dont have an endless supply of shoes or anything like that.
i tend to get my hopes up too easy just to get shot down realizing its just me.
some would say i should think positive but this has happened to many times that i cant help but think like this.
some say im too nice but girls always say "i want a nice guy" hah yeah right.
then they just go fall for the dicks.
i dont know what it takes to get a girl anymore.
which is why ive been single for so long.
man tired of it.
but hey, nice guys do finish last.

yeah random thoughts in the middle of the night. happy new years to you asians out there. stay cool